Well, we bought a house.

- One car detached garage…
- One and a half stories (and bathrooms)…
- Two miles from Grace College…
- Three bedrooms…
- Ninety three years old…

Not sure why I’m always caught off guard by God’s answers to prayer… I’m also not sure why God always seems to make us wait until the last minute to “show up” (He was there all along).

We close on July 18. In the meantime, well, we’re not sure. We are supposed to move out of our Grace College apartment at the end of the month. I suspect God will let us in on his plan for the meantime around June 28.

Thanks to all the readers who helped us with advice and babysitting. It was a challenging process, I’m just thankful we have something to show for it.

I’m also a little caught off guard by how stressed I have been through all of this. I hope I have time to process this response after we finish going through this transition, because I think it is significant. Responsibility (of all kinds) carries a different “weight” lately. Do I not trust God like I used to? or am I just more aware of the possible ramifications if I fail? Either way, I know I have become more self-centered in my thoughts and I worry more than ever. I tell myself this is not significant trial - especially when I compare my troubles with others that I have become aware of in recent days - yet, I worry.

Maybe it’s just that inevitable disappointment a man experiences when he has everything he ever wanted, only to find out that those things he wanted weren’t truly satisfying.

God, thank you for your goodness and generosity. Help to to want the things that are important to you.

Metanoia,

Aaron

Standing on the edge… about to jump… frozen in that place…

Maybe I’m crazy to be scared, it’s just that I’ve never spent 100 thousand dollars on anything. In fact, this is about 7 times more money than I’ve ever spent on anything.

Sarah and I are contemplating a home purchase. eckeacch….

It’s a very weird place to stand… here on the edge of a 30 year leash, about to change the backdrop for our family photos and video, dropping ourselves into a neighborhood of strangers, and piling on a bundle of new responsibilities. It’s so overwhelming, I can hardly move.

This is yet another expression of the grand hypocricy of my life: I want everyone to respect me and treat me like an adult, but I don’t want the responsibilty and risk associated with it. All of a sudden, I find myself with two children, a job I have never done before, an aging car (170K and counting), and I’m about to buy a house.

The crazy thing is, I feel like I’m the only one who has ever felt this pressure, the only guy who stressed out over the weight of life. Like everyone else has figured out something I haven’t… I know, sounds like an amazing time to talk about how God doesn’t expect us to carry it alone and I believe all of that HOWEVER, I don’t expect God to tell me how much we should offer or what type of mortgage to sign up for.

So, in actuallity (is that a word? no, I don’t think it is) we are interested in two houses - but leaning toward the one pictured above. It’s an old house - it has sat in that place for nearly a century. It’s not ideal for us, but it’s been well kept, and has some great character. It feels like a home. We like the location, the size of the house, and the screened in porch.

We need to make a decision if we’re going to make an offer on it tonight.

So, maybe men don’t lean on God because they can’t handle the stress in thier life. Rather, maybe men that lean on God do so because they want to. Because we can.

Thanks for listening in on my head over the last hour. And if you think of it, pray for us and this house.

Metanoia,

Aaron

Hey friends, do you have a few minutes to take a little survey I just created?

Click Here to take survey

It is a “word association” survey. You know, like when you say the first thing that comes to your mind when you hear a word… Usually, these types of thing end up showing how dirty your mind is.  Lucky for you, this one is completely annonymous!  It will take approximately 10 minutes. The results will be used in a seminar my team and I are presenting later this summer.

Come on, give ‘er a try!

Thanks!

Aaron